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i've been noticing during the past couple of weeks that i just don't care anymore.

don't worry; it's a good thing.

you know how in high school every little thing could be an ordeal in the making? oh no, a zit... i have clown feet... she's wearing the same shirt as me... my hair is crap... what will people think...? and so on and so forth. i mean, overall, high school was a pretty fun time for me, but man; now that i'm out i'd never want to go back. who needs that kind of daily pressure?

i realized the other day that many of the items on my old things-to-worry-about list have looong since been chucked. bad hair day? who cares! size eleven shoes? so what! what if i'm a dork? not a problem!

in a room of peers i am only moderately acquainted with, i now find myself at ease, cracking jokes that may or may not be funny but finding myself not caring. at the office where most co-workers are old enough to be my parents, i find myself at ease as well, keeping things light with comments that unfortunately are often lost on the baby boomers. which is really a shame, because they're always a hoot.

i am surprised on both counts. whether self-perception or reality, i've always seen myself as socially awkward and fairly shy [especially with people i don't know well]. while i still think that's true, i'm becoming aware that it seems less and less true as time goes on.

yay for me. score one for the change-can-be-good category.

Posted on Saturday, October 9, 2004 at 01:38PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments5 Comments

Reader Comments (5)

c'mon people, longaberger gets seventeen comments and this insightful, self-elucidating (?) post gets no feedback?

perhaps we are all simply awed by maria's skill and wit and charm.

Oct 10, 2004 at 04:32PM | Unregistered Commenterrachel
clearly, that is the answer.

i like the way this girl thinks.
Oct 10, 2004 at 11:23PM | Registered Commentermdog
Indeed. I feel the same. It's rather amazing how little I care what others think, but I think I care more deeply for those around me. :D
Oct 14, 2004 at 07:19PM | Unregistered CommenterMaren
great insight Miss Doogs. I have to admit, I care what people think much more often than I care to admit. Mostly, when it comes to people I really care about and respect. Generally, I find it easy to laugh at myself... but there are a few people when my junior high instincts rise their ugly head and I am 12 all over again. Thanks for writing so well. Peas
Oct 15, 2004 at 03:07AM | Unregistered Commenterchickpeas
Hey mdog - great post.
Oct 24, 2004 at 06:58PM | Unregistered Commenterhappyhearn

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