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"one thing that seriously scares me is that 'Christian art' has become a genre, and is often representative neither of the faith I know or anything I would call art. ...

let's be artful with our lives and attract others who are interested in the beauty that is in truth and the beauty in the idea that despite our brokenness we can reflect shards of greater glory."

- comments from rachel

so, i think i finished writing a song today. i'm not sure. i'll have to see how i feel about it tomorrow... oh, the curse of perfectionism.

i think i'm happy with it. but i have my fears... the biggest one being the fear that i have created precisely what i loathe, and that which rachel observes: bad christian schlock. granted, it doesn't have a chorus that repeats "i love jesus" ad nauseum for forty-eight bars -- that's not art -- but still, i have my doubts. is it crap? cliché? i have no idea. i've suddenly lost all perspective on what makes good music good music, thanks to my ego and insecurities waging their own little battle inside my head.

like any good perfectionist, i expect everything to be bright, shiny, presentable and durable the moment it's whisked off the Things Maria Has Created conveyor belt. because, you know, every song i write and photo i take and entry i create is, like, totally supposed to be a hit single, picture perfect, pulitzer prize winning sensation. silly girl.

basically, i wrote a song, it may or may not suck, and i need to just deal with it.

but if it really is schlocky, i'm going to be so disappointed.

well, i thought this was going to tie together a little better, but whatever. maybe the conveyor belt's broken. thoughts on artfulness and/or schlock are welcome.
Posted on Sunday, February 13, 2005 at 11:41PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments16 Comments

Reader Comments (16)

So where're the song lyrics so we can ascertain if you're schlockful? Bring 'em on. Hey, if friends can't tell you your song sucks, who can? :)
Feb 14, 2005 at 12:37PM | Unregistered CommenterVal
from what i know of you and the combination you possess of intelligence and your ability to convey it through the written word, i have no fear of schlock. and yes, bring on the lyrics!
Feb 14, 2005 at 12:59PM | Unregistered Commenteramo
I demand a video of live performance!

(just kidding)

guess you checked out peter's discussion...
Feb 14, 2005 at 01:01PM | Unregistered Commenterrachel
i did check out the discussion. i hope it was okay to borrow your thoughts.

posting lyrics... uhhh... you've no idea how hard it was for me to post that i had even written a song [my first, btw]. scary. perhaps in time... but not anytime soon. thanks all for the encouragement though...
Feb 14, 2005 at 01:09PM | Registered Commentermdog
Can I request to play a violin part in your song? :)
Feb 14, 2005 at 02:41PM | Unregistered CommenterSteve
yes you can request. the answer is no. :)

thoughts on art or schlock, anyone?
Feb 14, 2005 at 03:15PM | Registered Commentermdog
I'm not commenting on art or scholock until I hear your song.

Feb 14, 2005 at 05:08PM | Unregistered Commenterpaul
I'm with Paul. I would love to comment, but feel led to insist that you post your song.
Feb 15, 2005 at 12:05PM | Unregistered Commentermissmary
blackmail is not very becoming to you, my friends...

surely, one's thoughts about christian schlock and other such atrocities, the art of our lives, and reflections of glory do not hinge upon the lyrics of my song.

the lyrics will not be posted here.

that is all.
Feb 15, 2005 at 01:14PM | Registered Commentermdog
Hmmm ... seems to me that a "fear of schlock" leads to schlock itself. If you're so worried about how presentable or "shiny" your creation is, you'll tend to focus on the packaging and forget the you. By all means, don't forget the you!

btw, I did sense the sarcasm dripping from your post ... I'm just affirming your comments by playing angel's advocate. Uh ... yeah.
Feb 15, 2005 at 11:08PM | Unregistered Commenterlance
"All HTML will be escaped."

For reals?
Feb 15, 2005 at 11:10PM | Unregistered Commenterlance
for reals, yo.

thanks, lance. i won't forget the you. er... me. yeah.

i wasn't too worried about schlock as i was writing it, so that's a good sign. it's just post-creation insecurity, i guess.

sarcasm? me?

*blinks innocently*
Feb 15, 2005 at 11:18PM | Registered Commentermdog
i'd like to provide the bgvs, please!
Feb 16, 2005 at 09:52AM | Unregistered Commenteramo
I cannot imagine you producing anything remotely schlocky, mdog. Unless you had consumed a vast quantity of alcohol or something. And then got trapped in a Thomas Kincaide gallery. For several months. And kept drinking a LOT.
Feb 17, 2005 at 09:15PM | Unregistered Commenterhappyhearn
should i be frightened that that sounds intriguing?
Feb 17, 2005 at 09:47PM | Registered Commentermdog
the thomas kinkade part is busting me up!
Feb 17, 2005 at 10:02PM | Unregistered Commenterrachel

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