Entries from June 1, 2005 - June 30, 2005
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hello all. it's been awhile since i blogged for real. but it appears that my life-changing upheavals are settling down... thank God.
yesterday, a good friend asked me how i was,
specifically, ASIDE from work. because that's basically all i've been
talking about for the past month or so. actually, i'm amazed people are
still talking to me at all. do you KNOW how boring it is to hear about
office problems and accounting procedures for a solid month? WELL, DO
YOU?
anyway, my initial reaction to the question was
'hell, i don't know'. i feel like i've just been trying to keep my head
above water for quite awhile now... physically, mentally, spiritually.
which, of course, is better than completely drowning. but it gets
pretty tiring, you know? add the fact that i don't swim, and it just
enhances the metaphor. spiritually, i could certainly be doing better,
and i told my friend as much. i also said that "i want to try and work
on that. i mean... as much as i CAN work on that, anyway." ah, yes. how
much of that is me? how much of that is God? placing all the
responsibility on self is so overwhelming, the thought makes me quit
before i begin. placing all the responsibility on God won't get me
anywhere, either. as always... balance. balance is a good thing.
things are looking up, provided that i act upon some
thoughts and feelings i'm currently having. as i briefly mentioned the
other day, i restrung my guitar for the first time in what seems like,
oh, FOREVER. it's amazing how old, crappy strings can make everything
sound like crap, and you become so used to the craptasticness that you
forget what bright, shiny new strings sound like [which is to say, NOT
crap]. so, i've been playing more often, and have revived my desire to
find and play new [or at least, different] worship songs... songs that
are rich with passion, songs that are theologically grounded, songs
that make me WANT to sing them. music, songs, lyrics... these are the
things that, more often than any other aspect of our worship [generally
speaking], make me feel more alive, more passionate, more attentive in
my walk as a Christian. and so all of this, if i know myself [which i
sometimes do], seems to be a good sign. [a disclaimer before you panic
or raise any eyebrows: this isn't the basis of my spiritual condition,
but merely an indicator.]
so. yeah. in case you wondered. that's what's up.
if anyone has any worship cd's that consist of more
than inane, repetitive choruses [chorii?] and "me" songs, i certainly
wouldn't pass up the opportunity to listen to them.
bad ideas
- eating waaaaay too much at the office potluck; subsequently falling into a food coma upon digestion
- playing in an outdoor concert at 7pm in six hundred percent humidity
beighbee naymze
what IS it with people giving their kids ridiculous names?
bmw's and bands
is there some sort of rule that if you own a bmw you're required to drive like an ass? why, yes, i DO see that you're driving a bmw, now would you PLEASE BACK THE HELL OFF OR I'LL HAVE TO BUCKLE YOU INTO MY BACKSEAT.
in other news, if you're around the college green tonight, come listen to the summer band. i mean... it's free. what have you got to lose?
truth
Bob: [shaking his head] "We didn't chase anybody."
Phil: "The man who just left the room a moment ago, is a very good friend of mine. Is it because I've known him for a long time? Well, there are a lot of people who I have known for quite awhile. And some of them, I wouldn't let wipe my dog's ass. Others I can take or leave; they don't matter to me. But Larry matters very much. The reason being, I can trust him. I know I can trust him. He's honest."
Bob: "Is he honest? Or is he just blunt?"
Phil: "He's honest, Bob. He's blunt as well. That's sometimes part of being honest. Because there are a lot of people who are blunt but not honest. Larry is not one of those. Larry is an honest man. [takes a drag from his cigarette] You too are an honest man, Bob. I believe that. Somewhere down deep inside of you is something that strives to be honest. The question that you have to ask yourself is: 'Has it touched the whole of my life?'"
Bob: "What does that mean?"
Phil: "That means that you preaching Jesus is no different than Larry or anybody else preaching lubricants. It doesn't matter whether you're selling Jesus, or Buddha, or civil rights, or 'How to Make Money in Real Estate With No Money Down'. That doesn't make you a human being. It makes you a marketing rep. If you want to talk to somebody honestly, as a human being... ask 'em about his kids. Find out what his dreams are. Just to find out -- for no other reason. Because as soon as you lay your hands on a conversation to steer it, it's not a conversation anymore. It's a pitch. And you're not a human being. You're a marketing rep."
- from The Big Kahuna [1999]
"The loss of confidence in previously entrenched certainties, coupled with a growing suspicion of the institutions built around those certainties, has led to a new openness to explore alternative explanations of the world of experience. However, for Christians to engage people who are earnestly seeking alternative explanations that are more convincing and comprehensive requires a commitment to listen patiently and discerningly. It necessitates an unconditional acceptance of those who are content to live with ambiguity, and it requires the humility to communicate in open dialogue with those who hold a pluralistic worldview. The confidence of the witness must be in Christ alone and not in religious institutions or in the impregnability of a Christian apologetic. Any hint that the witness is motivated by a desire to enhance an institution or to monopolize conversation will cause the people with whom he or she is in contact to turn away uttering expletives as they go!"
- from ChurchNext: Quantum Changes in How We Do Ministry by Eddie Gibbs
"'As church leaders we would do well to study the various characteristics of postmodern culture. But our goal is not to uncritically adopt the trends. It is to understand what the people pursuing the trends are hungering for. What people are really hungering for is community, authenticity, and genuine faith.' So says Rah Soong-Chan in his article 'Navigating the Cultural Currents.'
Young people today are looking for truth that applies to their lives. In the past, Christian evangelism assumed that non-Christians needed to be convinced about biblical truth through a logical argument. Today's university students are rarely convinced about Christian beliefs through well-reasoned arguments and traditional Christian apologetics. In his article 'What Good is Truth?' William Dyrness says, 'People have come to instinctively distrust universal claims and are longing for more visible evidence of truth.' What they are looking for is truth evident in the life of another person."
- from Witnessing Communities & the kingdom of God [IVCF]
[yes, rachel, i'm finally reading it.]
tired thoughts
and it gets me to wondering... what would it be like to have my own business someday? and what kind of business might that look like?
you know...
i DO have a discussion board here at unleashed, for all those needing a fix...
so strange
my mornings would be so much more interesting if i remembered details from my dreams on a regular basis.
currently wondering
or, perhaps, this is just the life of a stable twentysomething single. the ability to just pick up and go is a nice thing to have. then again, so are guests.
excuse my momentary insecurities. i think it's going to be one of those weeks.