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hello all. it's been awhile since i blogged for real. but it appears that my life-changing upheavals are settling down... thank God.

yesterday, a good friend asked me how i was, specifically, ASIDE from work. because that's basically all i've been talking about for the past month or so. actually, i'm amazed people are still talking to me at all. do you KNOW how boring it is to hear about office problems and accounting procedures for a solid month? WELL, DO YOU?

anyway, my initial reaction to the question was 'hell, i don't know'. i feel like i've just been trying to keep my head above water for quite awhile now... physically, mentally, spiritually. which, of course, is better than completely drowning. but it gets pretty tiring, you know? add the fact that i don't swim, and it just enhances the metaphor. spiritually, i could certainly be doing better, and i told my friend as much. i also said that "i want to try and work on that. i mean... as much as i CAN work on that, anyway." ah, yes. how much of that is me? how much of that is God? placing all the responsibility on self is so overwhelming, the thought makes me quit before i begin. placing all the responsibility on God won't get me anywhere, either. as always... balance. balance is a good thing.

things are looking up, provided that i act upon some thoughts and feelings i'm currently having. as i briefly mentioned the other day, i restrung my guitar for the first time in what seems like, oh, FOREVER. it's amazing how old, crappy strings can make everything sound like crap, and you become so used to the craptasticness that you forget what bright, shiny new strings sound like [which is to say, NOT crap]. so, i've been playing more often, and have revived my desire to find and play new [or at least, different] worship songs... songs that are rich with passion, songs that are theologically grounded, songs that make me WANT to sing them. music, songs, lyrics... these are the things that, more often than any other aspect of our worship [generally speaking], make me feel more alive, more passionate, more attentive in my walk as a Christian. and so all of this, if i know myself [which i sometimes do], seems to be a good sign. [a disclaimer before you panic or raise any eyebrows: this isn't the basis of my spiritual condition, but merely an indicator.]

so. yeah. in case you wondered. that's what's up.

if anyone has any worship cd's that consist of more than inane, repetitive choruses [chorii?] and "me" songs, i certainly wouldn't pass up the opportunity to listen to them.

Posted on Thursday, June 30, 2005 at 11:32PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments2 Comments

bad ideas

- eating waaaaay too much [i.e., ANY] monkey bread and no-bake cookies at 8:30am at the office; subsequently sugar-crashing half an hour later
- eating waaaaay too much at the office potluck; subsequently falling into a food coma upon digestion
- playing in an outdoor concert at 7pm in six hundred percent humidity
Posted on Wednesday, June 29, 2005 at 10:24PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments2 Comments

beighbee naymze

oh gosh. i can't remember how i got to this site, but it's freaking funny.

what IS it with people giving their kids ridiculous names?
Posted on Sunday, June 26, 2005 at 06:06PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments7 Comments

strung out

ah... nothing quite like a fresh set of guitar strings.

ooo. shiny.
Posted on Saturday, June 25, 2005 at 09:16PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments2 Comments

bmw's and bands

is there some sort of rule that if you own a bmw you're required to drive like an ass? why, yes, i DO see that you're driving a bmw, now would you PLEASE BACK THE HELL OFF OR I'LL HAVE TO BUCKLE YOU INTO MY BACKSEAT.

 

in other news, if you're around the college green tonight, come listen to the summer band. i mean... it's free. what have you got to lose?

Posted on Wednesday, June 22, 2005 at 01:46PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments2 Comments

truth

Phil: "There's something I want to say to you, and I want you to listen very closely. Because it's very important. The man we just chased from here--"
Bob: [shaking his head] "We didn't chase anybody."
Phil: "The man who just left the room a moment ago, is a very good friend of mine. Is it because I've known him for a long time? Well, there are a lot of people who I have known for quite awhile. And some of them, I wouldn't let wipe my dog's ass. Others I can take or leave; they don't matter to me. But Larry matters very much. The reason being, I can trust him. I know I can trust him. He's honest."
Bob: "Is he honest? Or is he just blunt?"
Phil: "He's honest, Bob. He's blunt as well. That's sometimes part of being honest. Because there are a lot of people who are blunt but not honest. Larry is not one of those. Larry is an honest man.  [takes a drag from his cigarette]  You too are an honest man, Bob. I believe that. Somewhere down deep inside of you is something that strives to be honest. The question that you have to ask yourself is: 'Has it touched the whole of my life?'"
Bob: "What does that mean?"
Phil: "That means that you preaching Jesus is no different than Larry or anybody else preaching lubricants. It doesn't matter whether you're selling Jesus, or Buddha, or civil rights, or 'How to Make Money in Real Estate With No Money Down'. That doesn't make you a human being. It makes you a marketing rep. If you want to talk to somebody honestly, as a human being... ask 'em about his kids. Find out what his dreams are. Just to find out -- for no other reason. Because as soon as you lay your hands on a conversation to steer it, it's not a conversation anymore. It's a pitch. And you're not a human being. You're a marketing rep."

- from The Big Kahuna [1999]


"The loss of confidence in previously entrenched certainties, coupled with a growing suspicion of the institutions built around those certainties, has led to a new openness to explore alternative explanations of the world of experience. However, for Christians to engage people who are earnestly seeking alternative explanations that are more convincing and comprehensive requires a commitment to listen patiently and discerningly. It necessitates an unconditional acceptance of those who are content to live with ambiguity, and it requires the humility to communicate in open dialogue with those who hold a pluralistic worldview. The confidence of the witness must be in Christ alone and not in religious institutions or in the impregnability of a Christian apologetic. Any hint that the witness is motivated by a desire to enhance an institution or to monopolize conversation will cause the people with whom he or she is in contact to turn away uttering expletives as they go!"

- from ChurchNext: Quantum Changes in How We Do Ministry by Eddie Gibbs


"'As church leaders we would do well to study the various characteristics of postmodern culture. But our goal is not to uncritically adopt the trends. It is to understand what the people pursuing the trends are hungering for. What people are really hungering for is community, authenticity, and genuine faith.' So says Rah Soong-Chan in his article 'Navigating the Cultural Currents.'

Young people today are looking for truth that applies to their lives. In the past, Christian evangelism assumed that non-Christians needed to be convinced about biblical truth through a logical argument. Today's university students are rarely convinced about Christian beliefs through well-reasoned arguments and traditional Christian apologetics. In his article 'What Good is Truth?' William Dyrness says, 'People have come to instinctively distrust universal claims and are longing for more visible evidence of truth.' What they are looking for is truth evident in the life of another person."

- from Witnessing Communities & the kingdom of God [IVCF]




[yes, rachel, i'm finally reading it.]
Posted on Tuesday, June 21, 2005 at 05:57PM by Registered Commentermdog | CommentsPost a Comment

tired thoughts

i never thought that tacking just one more hour onto my workday would leave me so exhausted. and why don't they tell you in your accounting classes about all the extra crap you have to deal with in actual working situations? accounting. i want to do ACCOUNTING. i don't want to redirect mail, i don't want to pull teeth to get information from co-workers, i don't want to correct mistakes from two or three different parties. accounts, funds, debits, credits: this, i can deal with. this, i want. this, i am thinking, is a dream world.

and it gets me to wondering... what would it be like to have my own business someday? and what kind of business might that look like?
Posted on Monday, June 20, 2005 at 05:55PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments2 Comments

you know...

i DO have a discussion board here at unleashed, for all those needing a fix...

Posted on Sunday, June 19, 2005 at 04:47PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments4 Comments

so strange

i think i had a dream last night involving $130 sushi, filling out forms, and eating in my middle school cafeteria with a co-worker from my last job. wtf?

my mornings would be so much more interesting if i remembered details from my dreams on a regular basis.
Posted on Sunday, June 19, 2005 at 08:57AM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments13 Comments

currently wondering

why is it that in most [but certainly not all] cases, it seems as though there is an unspoken onus on ME to visit everyone ELSE? i realize i don't live in a glamorous city, or divine apartment. but i like to think i'm hospitable. it's fun to have visitors. i've got beds and couches galore. apparently, i myself am not enough of a draw for a sporadic visit or two.

or, perhaps, this is just the life of a stable twentysomething single. the ability to just pick up and go is a nice thing to have. then again, so are guests.

excuse my momentary insecurities. i think it's going to be one of those weeks.
Posted on Saturday, June 18, 2005 at 04:38PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments7 Comments
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