i used to delude myself into thinking i'm an outdoorsy kinda gal. i'm not really sure why. at some point i realized the delusion, and modified my thinking: i'd like to be an outdoorsy kinda gal. still, not really sure why. finally i accepted the facts: i enjoy the air-conditioned comfort of my home, watching televised triathlons occuring someplace far, far away from me.

so clearly, i don't know anything about anything when it comes to rock climbing and the like. however, the story of aron ralston [the man who amputated his own arm while exploring utah's canyons last year] is completely captivating to me. despite the fact that tonight's dateline nbc story was done by tom brokaw [does everything require annoying urgent inflections?], i found it fascinating.

as for his new book title, "between a rock and a hard place"...
descriptive? disturbing? or cheesy?
you make the call.

i am patiently awaiting my delivery of randomshirts:
 
aw yeah.

the internet is a fascinating phenomenon.

i was going to say "place", but then, it's not really, is it? a vast network of intangibility. i recently indexed my site on a few search engines... lo and behold, i have been found and clicked and browsed. fascinating. especially since the first two searches which brought up my site involved people searching for answers to existence and wondering about the presence of God. pretty heady stuff for my little mblog. [unless, of course, they were only looking for song lyrics. but then, that's not nearly as much fun to think about.]

i am as surprised as anyone that i have met people -- i mean, physically, met people -- whom i previously knew only as screennames on a message board. crazy? a bit. friendships? definitely. to hug someone, to shake hands, to look into their eyeballs, to see the "real" person from the other side of that computer screen... the persona and the person become connected; the intangible becomes tangible.

who are you? what brings you here? do i know you, or you me? if you know me, then this site is merely an extension of myself... you are privy to these thoughts in addition to our relationship. if on the other hand you have merely had the good fortune of stumbling upon this site, then this is all you know of me. intangible thoughts splashed on a page, with no context whatsoever.

that... is weird to ponder.

but, intriguing. does anything i say mean anything to you about anything? if i tried to explain that God is the reason for existence, or that He is in fact, omnipresent, would that mean anything to you? anything at all? i really don't know. at any rate, i'll keep plugging along, unleashing random thoughts. maybe they'll affect other people. and if not, well, at least they're out of my head. that's enough for me.