as of the time of this posting, i am probably in a building surrounded by at least thirty children who are relatives of mine in some way, but hell if i know exactly how.

 

and this is only my dad's side of the family.

 

happy thanksgiving! 

i'm heading "home" today and won't be back until thursday sometime. i know, i know: what will you do without periodic updates at unleashed? lucky for you, i've been inspired by lance's use of timed posts. hopefully i will be able to find a few things to keep you from working entertained this week.

do you ever have days where it seems like you're just sort of floating along, present but unnoticed, solid but invisible, feeling a little out of sorts with the world at large?

 

yeah, me neither.

 

small example: i wore my glasses today. i mean, i wear my glasses every day, at some point; otherwise i would stumble into furniture and walls just trying to make my way to the kitchen for breakfast. [for you contact lens wearers, i'm a -6.00]. but today i wore them, like, out. i can't remember the last time i did this. since i usually wear contacts, most people don't even know i need them. it's not that i don't like my glasses [i actually like them quite a bit]. it's just a pain because then i can't wear sunglasses while driving; or if it's raining, i'm forever wiping them off; or if it's hot, they're continually sliding down my nose. at any rate, it's a rare occasion, and i guess i just felt like something different today. too bad nobody noticed. or at least said anything. maybe they're actually hideous and no one wanted to mention them. who knows.

 

some days i question whether God is paying attention to me. is he even watching? listening? why isn't he answering? some days i want to shake my fist at the sky, demanding response. some days i actually do. and then some days, apathy overtakes any passion, any motivation, any indignance that might propel me into motion: why bother? no one is noticing, anyway. and then i remember things like this and reread them and think, man, have i still got a long way to go. one of these days i'll get the hang of this, i suppose. until then, i guess i'll stumble along in grace.

i am so F'ING tired of construction and related unannounced delays and roadblocks.

 

drivers: just drive. it's not that hard. get away from me if you don't know how.

 

bikers: you can't just pick and choose what traffic laws to follow and not expect to get smooshed one day. pay attention.

 

- via meegs