august

is it possible to actually sweat to death?

Posted on Tuesday, August 3, 2004 at 12:22AM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments1 Comment

counteracting the grumpiness

well, the majority of my first forays into blogging seems to be just a smidge... grumpy. which is not bad in and of itself, but good grief. my life's not all doom and gloom!

lately i realize how lucky i am to have friends that love me, and that i love in return. i have friends i can call when i can't fall asleep; i have friends that voluntarily put themselves "on call" for me during emotional times; i have friends that i can call after months [or even years], and pick up right where we left off; i have friends that i know will always be there for me, no matter what.

if you're reading this, and you're my friend [you know who you are] -- know that you are loved and appreciated.

Posted on Thursday, July 29, 2004 at 11:41PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments2 Comments

paranoia

there's nothing quite like the uncertainty of continued employment to keep morale up at the workplace.

Harassment.

show me some integrity and honesty and i'll respect the decisions you have to make. secrecy and half-truths however, will put you right at the bottom of my people-with-solid-character list.

Posted on Wednesday, July 28, 2004 at 11:57PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments3 Comments

"so, how's the therablogging?"

[ - from rachel, during her 99th hour of cell phone usage]

Posted on Tuesday, July 27, 2004 at 12:35AM by Registered Commentermdog | CommentsPost a Comment

[endurance]

" ... is not the patience which can sit down and bow the head and let things descend upon it and passively endure until the storm is passed ... it is the spirit which can bear things not simply with resignation, but with blazing hope; it is not the spirit which sits statically enduring in one place, but the spirit which bears things because it knows that these things are leading to a goal of glory; it is not the patience which grimly hopes for the end, but the patience which radiantly hopes for the dawn ... it is the quality which keeps a man on his feet with his face to the wind. it is the virtue which can transmit the hardest trial into glory because beyond the pain, it sees the goal."

 - william barclay

Posted on Monday, July 26, 2004 at 05:31PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments1 Comment

thoughts on a sunset

as i was driving on the interstate this weekend, i... came upon a storm system. that's about as best i can describe it. "came upon". it was about 8:00pm, and about a fifteen minute's drive ahead i saw ominous clouds and several bolts of lighting. i steeled myself for the joy of driving in a thunderstorm at dusk. as i approached, it turned out that the storm was directly west of, but not quite on, i-75. and so, for about half an hour, i took long glances at the system to my left as i drove alongside it. i took note that i could actually see the rain coming down from the west; as i yet traveled along in relative dryness, ready for a downpour at any moment by the darkening clouds all around me. in another fifteen minutes i reached my exit, where i was headed west [of course]. as i finished the turn, i realized that i again could see the rain -- only this time, i noted that it was coming pretty much horizontally. in big gusts. really hard.

fun.

so, it's looking pretty gloomy. dark thunderclouds, downpour, wind gusts like there's no tomorrow. my little cavalier, small but mighty, plugged its way through [albeit around 40 mph]. and then, suddenly, i was out of the storm. the pounding on the roof ceased, the wipers skittered across the less-slick windshield. and, i realized for the first time in about an hour, that it was still light out. a beautiful sunset was before me... oranges, pinks, blues. so focused was i on the darkness of the storm that i had completely forgotten it wasn't yet nighttime. the sun was still there, doing its thing... regardless of my utter unmindfulness of It.

there's a metaphor in there that would do me well to keep in mind.

Posted on Sunday, July 25, 2004 at 11:26PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments5 Comments

emotionally irrational

i am not really a gal that is prone to mood swings. you can generally find me on an even keel, well balanced, very grounded.

lately, however, several circumstances have arisen that have caused my emotions to go haywire. one minute i am happy-go-lucky, glad to be alive, counting my blessings; the next minute i am feeling as if the world is falling apart, everything is going wrong, life is spinning out of control. and, let's just say that having x-chromosomes isn't really helping things out this week either.

so as you can imagine, this is quite a juxtaposition.

i feel as if i'm going crazy.
i really do.

i am feeling needy and whiny, and it's making me nuts. who are you, and what have you done with maria?! please report any information on her whereabouts immediately to unleashed.squarespace.com.

Posted on Sunday, July 25, 2004 at 10:59PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments5 Comments

busyness

i hope to make this place more interesting in the weeks to come [i.e. posting entries that are less cryptic, and more than two sentences long]. at the moment though, i seem to be quite busy: which is weird, since i honestly don't have much of a life. go figure.

tonight is the last concert for summer band, which has required my tuesday nights [practice] and wednesday nights [concerts]. thursday nights [and subsequent sunday mornings] i've been sort of "on call" for worship practices/services. the next weekend or two i will be driving "home" to spend time with a wonderful friend that has been out of the country for a year.

busy, busy.

Posted on Wednesday, July 21, 2004 at 03:32PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments3 Comments

hi everyone.

welcome.

Posted on Tuesday, July 20, 2004 at 11:35AM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments5 Comments

life.

why is it that things never work out the way you [read: i] want them to?

this is getting old.

Posted on Monday, July 19, 2004 at 11:53PM by Registered Commentermdog | Comments1 Comment